My weight is something that I have struggled with my whole adult life. I do not really like to talk about it, and I do not like to admit that I have had an issue. I pretended that I never really worried about what others thought. It did not matter to me. In reality I knew it bothered me. I was not comfortable in my own skin. I always saw others as better looking, more put together, and even more professional because I was so overweight.
I had tried to lose weight over the years. I did a program with protein bars and low calorie foods, and I lost 40 lbs. I did a low carb diet and lost 30 lbs. I even tried just eating less and lost 15 lbs. The truth is I did have some successes here and there, but the problem was I never stayed motivated. I always put the weight (and more) back on every time. I never found what I thought was the magical formula.
Facebook is a great way to keep up with people, and it even allows you to see people who you would not normally keep up with. I had a few friends who were or became fitness junkies. I loved to watch things people posted while eating my junk food. I had one that I really liked, and I wish I could remember who posted it. Sadly it was years ago now. It said something so simple it resonated with me. It said something to the effect of, “Losing weight is not too difficult. Eat less, drink more water, and move more.” Simple.
I wasn’t ready then. I liked saying how happy I was as a married mom. I found my happily ever after, and I had no real reason to worry about how I looked. I had become complacent in gaining weight. I gave myself permission to eat what I wanted and not do anything about it. I disregarded my health. I worked full time, I had my kids, and I had my husband. It was almost like I did not feel I had anything to gain from keeping myself healthy.
Last year Scott and I talked a lot about changes we wanted to make in our life. We wanted to travel, to hike, to live in an RV, and seek adventure. Scott and I knew a lot of change had to happen. We went on a trip for our anniversary in January 2017. It was the trip we knew it was time to make some changes. We decided we had to start taking care of ourselves. 2017 was going to be the year of change. We wanted to get our health under control, we wanted to work towards getting our RV dream, and we wanted to be a better example for our kids.
We talked about different diet and exercise regimes we could implement. I had tried Weight Watchers in the past. I paid for the 3 months, and I always quit within the first 30 days. I never really decided to stick to it. It was something that made me feel good, but I never really did well at it.
Then it was my daughters 18th birthday. I looked in the mirror and realized how overweight I had let myself become. I looked at Malachi, and I realized I do not want him to turn 18 with the same mom not taking care of herself. I wanted more for my son. I wanted more for me.
That was the day I signed up for Weight Watchers. I was embarrassingly at a BMI of 45. That is considered obese. For those like me who do not memorize the BMI chart a healthy range of BMI is between 18.5-24.9. I was way way way over that! I had not done anything or eat anything that would help. I decided it was time to get my life together.
Knowing myself I signed up for online only. I will always make an excuse for not making the meetings. I know I would purposely work late, or I would “forget.” I just know that was not going to work for me. Then I discovered “connect.” It is the most amazing part of the Weight Watchers app. It is a social forum to share recipes, nsv’s (non-scale victories), triumphs and defeats. I have seen so much encouragement, and I have never seen anyone negative. It is unlike any social media platform I have ever used.
Tomorrow marks 1 year that I have been on Weight Watchers. I did put on 10 pounds over the holidays, and so far I have lost 5 back. In total I have lost 70 lbs for the year. I have never stuck to any diet plan like that. I know it is become Weight Watchers lets me make my own choices. I ate pizza, cookies, fruit, pancakes, muffins, and anything I wanted. I learned more portion control, eating slower to savor food, and that I have to move some. I am still admittedly not someone who likes to exercise, but I have tried some.
2018 will be our year of 30 day challenges. As we embark on those I will be continuing my journey with Weight Watchers. I feel more healthy, alive, and like a better wife and mother. If you are thinking about joining, or have questions please feel free to ask me. If you decide to join I there is a referral program code I would love to share with you. It would give me credits towards the Weight Watchers merchandise. I love Weight Watchers. I am thankful for Weight Watchers, and I cannot wait to get my BMI to a healthy range… just so you know after losing my 70 pounds my BMI has dropped to 34. I am still considered obese, but at a BMI of 29 I will only be considered overweight… as silly as this sounds out loud… Overweight here I come!!
Disclaimer: I do not work for Weight Watchers or its affiliates. I am in no way compensated for writing about them. I only share my story because I know if I had something to read when I was in denial it would have helped me.
From time to time I will post about my weight loss journey. It is not always a loss, and it is not always easy, but I promise you it is always worth it.